Do you ever realize that a symptom that you thought was psychological, was actually physical? Or vice versa? Example: lots of headache pain was actually stemming from the psychological issues, but at first you thought it was actually a physical issue.
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New York support group for people with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) / Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD)
for me, lately, i’ve had a whole lot of realizing that symptoms that i’d assumed were psychological are probably actually physical.
i thought it was psychological when i had to sit at a particular spot on the train, but it turns out it’s mostly about my balance issues, and those particular spots on the train are the ones where i fall over the least! or, i thought it was psychological when i hated crowds, but it turns out that it’s harder for me to move around safely when people unexpectedly get in my way, and i’m more likely to lose my balance.
or thinking that the vision changes and double vision i’ve had were from DID, but now i’m recognizing that they are probably caused by something physical.
honestly, for me i’m realizing that i ignored a whole lot of physical symptoms for a long time because the first time i went to the doctor about them, they said it was psychological, and now i’m realizing that they are probably physical. it helps that i’m getting better emotionally, so it’s harder to stay in denial about the physical stuff.
that’s hard, emotionally, because i have a lot more control over my mental health than my physical health. it feels like it would be easier if it WERE psychological, because then i know how to make it better, and i can trust it will GET better. it’s scary to realize that all of this stuff going on is from some physical source, because then it’s gonna be harder to make it get better, or i might not be able to make it better at all.