Do you notice opposites in your life? If so, how do you deal with these “opposites”?
New Landscape ~ DID/MPD Support Group
New York support group for people with Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID) / Multiple Personality Disorder (MPD)
Do you notice opposites in your life? If so, how do you deal with these “opposites”?
i brought this up because it’s something i’ve been thinking about a lot. it started when i was first coping with fibromyalgia, and realized that the less i tried to do, the more i could actually get done. then with therapy, my current therapist finally demonstrated that the more slowly i try to progress, the faster i move through the healing process.
but it’s a difficult concept for me. i’m more used to pushing myself to the limits in order to make progress. i’m used to working really hard, and that’s what seems to make the most sense.
lately, though, it’s been a really weird thing. i’ve been trying and trying to get some stability in my system, and to figure out some way of being able to regain that stability when something upsets it. the problem is, i don’t know exactly what it is that is working when things work. it just… works. and so it’s hard to get from chaos to stability if i don’t know how i got there, and it’s hard to stay stable if i don’t know what i was doing that made things stable.
i am starting to realize, though, that the best communication i have within my system is when we don’t try to communicate. and when we do *try* to communicate, it doesn’t happen.
so i guess i just have to get used to opposite land, and figure out how to try without trying. it’s really frustrating for me, to say the least.